"This movement is going to fucking hurt" said Kit Carruthers. You may have thought I was simply addressing the harsh nature of our reality, you may have thought I was speaking only to more conservative minded people. However I'm afraid in order to join our movement you too are going to need to be hurt. The likelihood of you being a person who is not hurt by reading our essays is astronomically low, about 5% of you will in no way be hurt by our essays. There does not exist a single person who is entirely clean, obviously even we ourselves were not always entirely clean. 40% of you will be cut deep, whether you're conservative minded or liberal minded, you will be obliterated, some of you will not be able to go on.

Most people will be saved from the pain of the knowledge of themselves by the bliss of the knowledge of the workings of our reality and the world that is to come, by the knowledge that the pain of the self means very little. Some will not. Some still won't be able to go on.

The wall of fear is broken in the essays and what you get is more in line with our day to day expression, it is both less horrifying and more horrifying. You will understand the wall of fear is both true and necessary, for behind this wall is in fact something quite inconceivable. You're not falling for this wall of fear, obvibously it's not as scary as you're presenting means you're likely a desirable candidate for Winnipeg, depending of course on how deeply wrong you happen to be. No, nothing that paints us as the impossible Satan is actually the impossible Satan.

"It's not so bad" you say, "It's normal" you say. "I'm used to it, it's been my entire life, it's just society, it's just the world." you say.

The average mind can never properly receive a message, ANY message, but particularly our message. You have likely been going your entire life assuming you receive properly however you most certainly do not receive properly. NO, 55% of you are currently thinking "Not me though" and 85% of you are entirely incorrect, I'm talking to YOU. NO. I'M STILL TALKING TO YOU. Your mind will need to be entirely unraveled before you could ever dream of properly receiving a message.

We'll start with the nature of your mind, from there we'll find God... It's in the back of your mind. Now I'll tell you how to find... YOU. Like God has always wanted for you. It was never as hard as you thought... It's much easier than living the rest of your life questioning your value to the others. I know, I know, all your life you've been going "NO! NO I don't wanna... I can... I don't have to look at myself if I don't want to!! I can just somewhat adopt some traits seen as desirable and that should be enough to maintain the stability of this thing..." Well, I'm not giving you any other choice.

I can make you cry over why you feel the need to say things such as "You look tired." I can, I can do it. I can pretty much blame the entire state of society on you, I can loosely connect it RIGHT to fascism. The way in which I make you look at your own mind may well cause society to declare me the evilest man in history.

I have done whatever I can to block your self fragmentation techniques, however I'm afraid 30% of you will enter Winnipeg with self fragmentation towards the nature of the self. Most of the time it is not full dissociative identity disorder, but yes I have given people dissociative identity disorder, I know for certain of one lady in Thailand, people say she was not an easy candidate for dissociative identity disorder. I wanted to fix you. Oops. Apparently I've been doing this to people all my life.

84% of you will self fragment towards the world, you cannot believe you have been looking at the others your entire life. By the time I was half way through my essays, I myself fragmented at the world a little bit. You may be better off keeping it, that's not something a psychiatrist would say, without it the world may be in a bit of trouble.

There is the rare type who is more repaired by my writings than they are damaged, however there is an extra dimension of why you are an oddity if this is you because usually people who require this repair go off behaving in ways that I must destroy. I am very forgiving of darkness and I make you feel that way too, I am not forgiving of annoying and stupid.

No, no I do not break you down into a shell of whatever I want you to be. I want you to be you were meant to be, I want you to be what you've always wanted to be. However once you've done it you really have no choice but to agree with everything I say.

The analyzation of all that is horrid about people most certainly does not create a society of many who are all the same, the removal of the societal celebration of horrid also comes with the removal of the societal celebration of nothingness. The two balance in favour of creating a society with four times more uniqueness than society as it currently is. A society of what people have always wanted to be.

Do you think you have freedom of thought? Is that really what you think? Such a concept has never existed. Societal standards weigh upon you just as hard, if not harder, than the law ever has.

After all that's left in there is you, perfect you, you'll know what you need to do.

hAHa! HaHA!! BREAK SOCIETY!! TOPPLE THE STRUCTURE!! END IT ALL!!! Bring us happiness...

(then aria rants at society)

(then sam sells it)

You may be semi consciously thinking to yourself "All of these concepts seem to be things that cut into the real. The reality of myself, the reality of the world, the reality of the nature of reality. That's BORING. I hate when people do that, why even bother doing that? It isn't even anything it's just the obvious boring thing in front of us. These real world people never get it, they're far too simple minded they have no idea how ridiculous they look to the rest of us. They don't do anything that matters it's an entirely pointless exercise. They don't even know how this works, this isn't a reality where we present reality, we all have our own reality and we present our reality to the others and then they show us theirs and we float away together, people like them just ruin our fun they don't even get it. They don't see it. There's something wrong with them. They're missing some core aspect of how we were meant to be." You are about to find out things that are real are far more interesting than what we can dream up in our float.

The answer to the question of afterlife has always been right in front of us. It's obviously the most reasonable afterlife, from here there is plenty of empirical evidence to back it up, unfortunately it is scientific atheists who own the concept of empirical evidence and so there has always been a permanent lock on this concept. The answer becomes particularly obvious to anybody who has ever wondered "Why? Why me? Why always just like this?" and been smart enough to reason themselves into a solution.

While of course some of the mysterious aspects of this existence are entirely imaginary, you know a lot of them are real and there is no need to be afraid of this. Just because science refuses to observe the layer of our reality they have deemed non-physical does not mean these things need to disprove the entire concept of science, these things can all exist within a scientific understanding. Science rejected religion and assumed this means it needs to reject anything at all that triggers the feelings that remind them of religion, science became entirely left brain locked into this being the only way to explain the universe as they tremble in fear at everything outside of their understanding. Spirituality is a thing we have deemed unknowable, scientific reasoning declares there is no such thing as unknowable, scientific reasoning declares there is no such thing as spirituality. It's okay science, you only need to make one little adjustment to your left brain lock it doesn't need to frighten you.

Afterlife we declare known and untouchable, many things we can declare known and untouchable. There are many things we can bring to the level of physical science and state that this is the only way it could be, however not confirmed. There are a few things we can declare scientifically confirmed. There are many things where all we can do is give you the most reasonable possible theories. These theories, of course, based on a much fuller understanding of the layer of reality that before us nobody has ever scientifically observed. Obviously some things must be declared impossible, some things we declare a possibly and if so it would be a result of this. We will never strain to make something real for you, if something is close the best you'll get out of us is you're close to something but it's different, we will never connect something to what you already think in order to make it real for you. No, "I have no idea what this could be" is not a thing you would ever hear any of us say.

Even scientists are not immune to the kind of thinking I had previously outlined. 60% of scientists are always thinking to themselves, "I would rather live in a reality that conforms to this particular theory than reality as it clearly is. I will devote my life to proving the concepts I know to be false. I think people will like it this way better."

(then some other people go - sam and two others, just the things that lead to science destroying religion so we can destroy society)

So there it is, the solution to society. Science defeats religion. That was the barrier, that was the lock on the door. We still have a lot of work to do, however none of that work would ever get done if the majority of the planet was still within their religion.

I will never understand how anybody could ever read a script that is their religion and assume they can apply it to the reality before them. The most dominant of religions are based entirely on drug addled fantasy, there is nothing within the majority of these scripts based on observation of our reality, not one word of it, they just fantasize up a bunch of nonsense and tell you to apply it to the reality before you or the protagonist of our script will deliver to you the highest of suffering.

And the fact that you can never hammer it into your core is what gives it it's power. Deep down you understand this is an impossible concept, deep down you understand many of the things you believe contradict each other, deep down you understand the world of your religion is a world that could never be. And so you CLING FOR DEAR LIFE, MAINTAIN IT NO MATTER THE COST.

(then some other people go)

(then i get the last word, sam gets the second last word, aria gets third last)

THIS. IS. HOW. IT. IS. We're not leaving you any way out of it. If you feel you wish to escape this one, your only option is to lose your marbles.

So, where is it? Nowhere, it doesn't even exist. You'll have to get it by email but that isn't a difficult thing to do. Nearly every one of us on social media has a stickied post where you can drop your email address to receive it, you can email any one of us to request it. It's spreading and circulating, at some point it may come to you whether you like it or not.